Just read an article by Sister Lilian on Parent24 re C-sections. Everytime I read an article about the Natural vs C-section debate, I feel sad. I SOOOO wanted to give birth naturally with a lot of pain relief of course, but I wanted to experience the primal ritual of pushing a new life into this world via your vajayjay. And even though I know that I really tried and that I could probably have gone a bit longer than the 17 hours I did and maybe Thomas would have finally decided to ‘engage’ I’m not sure it would’ve been a pleasant experience though. What if I endangered our lives by sticking to my guns, etc. Very rational. But then there’s the other bit that knows I’m not having another child and feels cheated and useless and like a complete and utter failure for ‘copping out’. I sometimes go to a really dark place about it and actually feel robbed and way sad. My funny side tells me that this is all because Thomas mostly sleeps through at night now (Yay for playschool and all the things they do that makes him pass out at 7 pm!!) and I have more time on my hands to think about crap like this. Anyone feel/felt that way?