These are the words my assistant nurse declares after every medicine-giving exercise. Since I came from hospital and he wouldn’t let me out of his sight, he has demanded that he give me my cocktail of drugs and holds the glass of water as I swallow the tablets.
And once the tablets are down… Mama, you’re fixed now?! Then I have to explain that I must first finish ALL the tablets in the packets before I am fixed. Not sure he understands, but that’s the best I can do.
Another thing he says a lot that just finishes me, is : Mama, you can’t go with me? I haven’t been going anywhere, it’s always just him and DH so when he asks this I know that he wants me to go with and I have to say no, I wait here for you.
He’s also very insecure about my whereabouts in the house since my hospital stay. I have to announce where I’m going and what I’ll be doing. And if he’s forgotten where I said I’d be he runs through the house in a flat spin shrieking Mama, Mama!
But we are just loving him more than is humanly possible and I hope this episode is nothing more than a blip on his childhood memories. I can’t remember anything before 4/5 years anyway. Hope he’s the same.
I am definitely feeling much stronger this week and seeing as how I’m supposed to be back at work next week, it’s a good thing. Will obviously have to ease back into work but if this is how I feel after a month of the meds… I think there’s hope for me.