Yup, I’ve been to the ENT guy and audiologist and I’ve lost 50% hearing in my right ear and 40% hearing in my left ear! ENT guy reckons the nerves in my ear have been klapped by the same virus ‘what did my heart in’. Gmff.
Must say I’ve been very Zen about this whole thing and even the thought of not being able to hear as well as I used to without the help of hearing aids, hasn’t fazed me either.
Tania has the right idea with her gratefulness list. Since this whole heart saga started, I’m just gratefeul to be alive. Full stop. I can breathe fairly easy again, I don’t need to be hooked up to oxygen or other machines, my heart is doing great on it’s own, I don’t need an external pump just yet. I can breathe and live on my own. Grateful. So what if I can’t hear that well. So what if it becomes a permanent loss of hearing. I can still see and there are certain sounds I will NEVER forget… Thomas’ first cry, his laughter, his voice, loved ones’ voices, etc. I must just make sure I ‘back-up’ all my sounds just in case they disappear.
So the deal with my hearing now is that I’ve been on cortisone for 7 days – 3 more days to go. I go back to ENT guy on Tuesday to have the same tests I had two weeks ago and if there’s no improvement, I will need hearing aids. If the damage is not permanent, I dunno what he plans to do.
Amazing how this whole experience has competely shifted my focus. I really no longer sweat the small stuff and you know those misplaced guilt feelings we all have about all sorts of trivial kack? All gone. I feel so much lighter and free-er to say NO, I don’t want to, No, it doesn’t suit me, No, I’d rather spend the time with my family, No, I don’t really like you that much. It is just so bloody free-ing.
Try it, you’ll never look back!
Thanks to all of you who always checks up on me. Great to know that I’m missed 🙂
PS: The header of this post is what ENT said to me just before my Zen-nes ran out and my eyes started ‘leaking’. Luckily DH was with me to catch me.