After reading this article http://www.huffingtonpost.com/mobileweb/allison-tate/mom-pictures-with-kids_b_1926073.html?utm_hp_ref=fb&src=sp&comm_ref=false (my link insert thingy isn’t working for some reason).
I have renewed my vow to be more in the picture. My mom died when I was 9 and a lot of the pics of her were lost/stolen/destroyed. I only have her wedding pics and the odd pic of her at some family gathering as evidence that she ever existed, Oh and whatever pics I have on the reel in my mind. Therefore not much to go on and remind me of her.
Before I had Thomas I didn’t like having pics taken because of body issues and after Thomas there was definitely more body issues to be dealt with.
Cue the health drama and almost dying which chilled me and I realised I am well on my way to doing to Thomas what I dread most. No remembrance of me. So I allowed more pics to be taken but nothing to be published.
Then I went to the funeral of a family friend. She was huuuge but there were so many happy pics of her and her kids, grandkids and even great-grandkids. And one could see the love and happiness in these pics! This definitel helped with my body issues and the camera, but still no publishing of pics. Just for Thomas’s memories.
After reading this, I reckon what the hell! I have only one life. My son has only one Mama and I want him to remember me. So here’s to being in the picture!